India's much too short autumn is breathing its last and the onslaught of the cold draught of wind stirs up an age-old foe, depression.
I am not among the surprised ones this year. I have known all too well of the creeping hollowness that winters can bring. However, I must admit that I am surprised that instead of being on guard against the symptoms I have come to know very well. I find myself wielding a defiant shield against a recognised few. So here I am today, battling the horrors that make the ones I care about weak and try to help them overcome their fears and the only question that I face, like every other year, is.. What should I look forward to now?
Do not misunderstand my anxiety for depression, let the insolence lie aside for a while. Sit, listen to me for once... for I have much to express. Life has been as exciting as I could have never possibly imagined. My understanding is so very limited that I simply give up in awe at the beauty of everything around me. It is truly difficult to explain how it feels when the breath that you once drew felt like a obligation and then... as if touched my a magical hand... its transforms into a miracle. Yes, every single breath I take today is a miracle. Every note I hear, every emotion I feel and every sense of touch and taste... it is miraculous. Food never tasted better, I never felt more warm, music never sounded so pure and the sense of being alive never seemed more complete than how it does at this moment. It's great to be alive. It is an endless jubilation, a celebration of colours and things I can touch and learn about. As a seeker, I always say, that my journey begins every moment and I am grateful that at this moment I am learning something new. There is no desperation to reach the end or a need to know what lies beyond. The curiosity is satisfied for I have only too many answers at hand. There is a purpose, I am sure for every moment I learn something new. There is still something more I need to learn, probably unlearn so that I can return to and experience it with new eyes.
I had happily passed the phase after the strange dream I had of a naked woman wrapped by a giant snake. Till a few minutes ago when a picture of the very vision I had, popped on the screen of my colleague (who sits next to me).. It was a page about Lilith. The true alter-ego of man and the woman God created before Eve. On reading some more, I understand that Lilith was way too explosive to sustain life on Earth and hence, she had to be destroyed. The tamer Eve took her place but Lilith, having been a resident of the Earth, left her traces behind. She had, in fact, borne Adam children.. a girl (I don't know why this sounds obvious) along with several various lesser forms of human (who were conveniently tagged as demon off-spring and their mother termed as a demoness) but since she was uncontrollable to Adam, she was banished. Adam and Eve continued their life on Earth. It is thus, a myth that all children were born of Adam and Eve alone... Lilith and her children prospered as well...
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