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It really isn't that hard to smile, I have realised. Yes, sometimes you really get tired of being in one state of mind for too long and then you erupt with all the anxieties and frustrations that you have been tossing away for 'later reference'. At such times, it is easy to spiral down the never-ending darkness and no matter how hard you try to find a foothold, there is no way that one finds an easy way to break the fall.
As I age, I find it easier to become calmer and therefore, my spirals have become more violent. The sense of constantly tripping into the abyss from which I may or may not be able to crawl out takes a toll on my psyche. There are two ways of dealing with this now. I can give in to the sickening feeling that rises in my system after every storm or take charge and find brand new ways of combatting my own mind!
As far as I go, I need to just remind myself that anger is pointless. The only person affected by my misery is me. The world I live in has no room for those who are sad, depressed or angry. It is so much easier to get the deaf to hear when you say it with a smile. And after all, it isn't that hard to smile.

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